From
the time immemorial, I was carrying a serious question with me. Believe me, it
was darn serious as before branching out and vanishing into the state of
horrible dreams, it used to abandon me with so many insomniac nights. When I
was a kid, I used to ask this question to my mother to confirm if I’m normal or
not. But as I grew older, my doubt started converting into the confirmation. A
confirmation that changed whole my life, a confirmation that snatched peace of
my mind, a confirmation that declared I was not a girl enough. The question
that made me restless in all those years was-
“Why
pink color doesn’t allure me?”
You
see our society is built up of two kinds of creatures- ones who hate pink; that
is men and the ones who are afraid to love anything else other than pink; that
is women. Just fumble a girl’s wardrobe and you’ll find majority of the stuff
announcing the “win-win” state of the pink color. I know women of age-group 3
to 70 years that can vouch for this statement. I used to see at my own wardrobe
that got only one pink dress and was full of guys colors like blue, grey and
black. And that was the point when plethora of terrible thoughts popped into my
head declaring I was not girl enough. People asked me what my favorite color
is, and they were generally shocked and worried after listening “Olive Green”. Some
of them would probably suggest, “You should do something for this honey!”.
Since my childhood my lack of interest in pink and vanity table horrified my
mother. She wanted me to turn up into a proper young lady that wasn’t possible
unless I liked the pink. But what could I do, pink was never my color, I never
played with girls, rather I chose the company of my brothers and I was never
bothered about my looks or clothing. All this used to make my mother kind of
upset but gradually she accepted it and started living with the fact that she
has two sons!
Sometimes I saw at elderly females who had
all the grace of a woman, wearing starched cotton sarees(obviously pink!!),
having neatly made plait and putting on exact round shaped sindoor on their forehead. I wondered that even at this age they
fancy so much about how they look and they got all the charms towards the life.
I started feeling so low considering how less interest I had in these things
even at an age of 20 years. And that’s when it striked me that the fear of my
mother wasn’t wrong and I was not a proper young lady. Though I didn’t want to
grow into a narcissist yet I wanted to feel like a normal girl who cares about
how does she look no matter what time of day it is! But one day this all got
changed and flying colors including pink(wink..wink) entered into my life.
It
was a busy day and I had to skip my two continuous meals. I was running low
with calories and still got a lot of work to finish. I tried to carry on but
soon the world started revolving in front of my eyes and I got faint. When I
opened my eyes I was surrounded with so many people and my head was resting on
my friend’s lap. A little confused and tired, I got up and saw a guy with
innocent eyes standing there and watching me worriedly. Forgetting my condition
in nanoseconds I enquired my friend in sign language if I looked okay. She
smiled and assured me that I looked fine. And instantly it was crystal clear to
me that girls always will be the girls, no matter if they like pink or not. “Aah
Vanity; thy Name Is woman!!”.
really gals r always gals...either they love pink or not...at some point they prove their girlish attitude....
ReplyDeletehahaha..really!! :)
ReplyDeleteawesome dear...just luv it <3
ReplyDeletethanks a lot dear :)
DeleteDidi this is the statement of a very typical orthodox charming , mature girl.Par aap itni badi kaisa ho gayi
ReplyDeletehey i dont think so im a mature girl though i agree that im an astute observer...maybe a result of that!!!btw thanks a lot..n love you for all your appreciation :) :)
Deletesuperbly written dear.... n dnt worry dear.. i too m nt fond of pink so much "although i hav lots of pink dresses" ;)
ReplyDeletethanks for appreciation..haha.."you should do something for it,honey!" ;) ;)
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